For many years I suffered from bad fatigue, and I felt overwhelmed by life. Over the years I have particularly felt overwhelmed by the idea of maintaining a property, and having to meet the physical demands of house and garden work.
In the last few years I’ve learnt to use my body in a more gentle, loving and cooperative way. Which also happens to be a more efficient way! I learnt to stand and move with a free, comfortable, upright posture, which makes it much lighter and easier to do physical tasks.
But even though I’ve greatly improved the way I move, I am still in the HABIT of feeling overwhelmed about house and garden work.
I live in a four bedroom house on a large-ish block with my partner and 3 step-kids (week-on, week-off).
I recently realised that I’ve been AVOIDING doing housework or garden work again, because I’ve been feeling overwhelmed by the volume of work required to take care of a big house and garden.
Not because I can’t physically do it, but because the IDEA of it is overwhelming.
So I’ve been through a bit of a reconciliation within myself about this issue over the past week!
And it was good to remind myself that:
- It’s OK to feel overwhelmed. It’s just a feeling that will come and go.
- Just because I’ve been feeling like this for a long time, doesn’t mean that I have to continue like this. I could change the way I feel about this at any time!
- If I use my body gently and caringly, then physical tasks become much less tiring.
- If I just do one household task, without connecting that task to a sense of failure about all the other tasks I’m not doing at the same time then I feel much better about everything!
- I can tune into my body, and work (or rest) in accordance with how it’s feeling in any given moment…